So I thought everythig was going great...WOW was I wrong. I had soooo many plans that came to a crashing halt 2 days ago when my boyfriend decided he needed a break out of the blue. I understand that our situation isn't an ideal one but I didn't want to move in here anymore than he wanted me to...this was supposed to be my year by myself and it just didn't work that way. I tried to make it work...I really did. I realize there were somethings that I could have done better but I'm not going to take full responsibility for the fall of our relationship...He hardley put in as much time into this relationship as I did. He says he only wants his space for now but I really dont know if I want it to just be a break..A part of me wants to work things out and try to keep things going and I think I will if he is willing to try harder in a few areas...I'm fine with his drinking as long as he doesn't take his angre out on me...not physically cuz he has never done that...but when he has a bad day instead of turning to me he turns to Karkov Vodka and his Xbox....what kind of relationship is that...I felt more like his roommate than his girlfriend....

Now I don't know what to do....its going to be so weird living here until I move in with my best friend in a month...mostly because I still want it to work and I really dont know how he feels...I know he needs his space and I'm willing to give it to him...but I need to know if I am holding out for something that is never going to work...I just don't know what to do...

Full Swing

So it's been a month since I've done an entry. I've been so busy with work and class that I just haven't had time. I guess actually not that much has happened either...


I've been trying to get back in touch with some of my friends that I haven't seen in a while. It's been hard to find time to go do something that isn't work or school related. My friend Crystal and I went to Noodles last week and I hadn't seen her since our friend Andrea's wedding, which was 4 months ago. And on Saturday my friend Brooke took me and Jeremy grocery shopping (we only go when one of my friends loans us their car...we've only been grocery shopping 3 times in the last 6 months...) As a result of not going shopping very often we spent way to much...over $300...just imagine if we had kids...but we do make it last haha :)

So last night Jeremy and I watched the Academy Awards...rather I watched them and couldn't take my eyes off the TV and Jeremy played x-box and glanced over every so often...anyway I was watching them and all of a sudden the camera panned to Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt...seriously get over them they aren't that great....and her jewelery was hideous! They seriously looked like she got the earrings and her ring from those sets of costume jewelery they sell in the toy isle at wal-mart, and today I was on TMZ and Yahoo.com and the fashion "police" said they were awesome...gross anyway I just wanted to point that out...Until Next Time :)

Graduation/Life

School has officially started for the spring semester! You don't know how much I wish this was my last semester...I'm kicking myself for not realizing that I didn't have the passion for chemistry sooner so I could have changed my major right away...however I decided to change it the first semester of what could have potentially been my senior year. Good news is I changed it to italian studies (which I LOVE) and I was already minoring in it so I don't have that much longer. In fact I only have one more class in my major and 10 more credits outside my major to be done. I'm going to finish the class in italian studies this summer and i'm also going to take 1 or 2 other classes this summer so I don't have to take that many next semester. So that means that I'm going to graduate in December 2009!!! YAY I can't wait. I don't really know what I'm going to do after I graduate but I still have a while I guess....and knowing me I'm probably going to procrastinate it as long as I can.

Me and Shanell looked at apartments on Tuesday and we found one that we fell in love with! It's so big and the bedrooms are almost the same size...that was the major problem with all the other apartments that we looked at, 1 room would be good sized and the other like a child's room. I can't wait to move in with her in May. Its a little more expensive than the other apartment complex we were looking at which happens to be the same one Jeremy and I are living in now...but I'm willing to pay more because not only are the bedrooms huge but the living room is massive and there is a grill deck for every apartment, there is a pool, hot tub, and a library! It's pretty much my favorite place on earth lol. I love living with J right now but I'm not ready to live with him long term yet...we both still need to be by ourselves for a while before the day comes for a permanent move in together.

Work is going well. I had to drop 2 shifts so I could focus more on school but I will be fine with my finances. I just need to focus on graduating.

More later :)

First Time

So this is the first time that I've written a blog and now that Erin is in New York and I won't be able to get together with her for a while I thought I would follow in her foot steps and start a blog... there will be more to follow....